Love to Express

michelle.
dreamer.
bashful.
apprehensive.
emotionally sensitive.
loves the rain.
craves for pizzas and pastas.
new at tumblr.
certified NBSB.
jobless nurse.
drama queen.
GOD-fearing.
loves quotes and songs i can relate to.
poetic.
hopeless romantic.
nature-lover.

i am nowhere near perfect…i fall inlove easily.im vulnerable to believing lies.im hoping that 1 day i wont need a fake smile.i live by quotes that explain exactly what im going thru.i have bestfriends & critics.i have good memories & a share of dramas.so whether u love or u hate the imperfect me…i hope that what i am is good enough for u to 'follow' me…

MY RANDOMNESS.....

***I love the sound of the rain falling on the roof..it soothes my senses.....

***I used to have diaries..but now i think, i'm just too old for that....but then i still keep the old diaries and read them whenever i want to...and smile..: )

***when i was at kindergarten and our teacher would ask what do we want to be someday, most of my classmates would say they want to be a teacher...but i said, NO WAY!!haha..i don't have the guts to teach...i'm too impatient...

***I love the beach!!so much!!..though i can't swim...i just find it a romantic place..i love the serenity of it.....walking along the seashore, bonfire, moonlight, cold summer nights, sunrise and sunsets...i just sooo love it!!

***I always wanted to be a chef...i love cooking...though i'm not that good at it, i just love to......

***I'm a very sensitive person...i easily get hurt when offended..but i just keep it to myself just to avoid confrontations or conflicts which i hate the most...

***I'm a great pretender...i can smile even if i'm totally sad...i can hide feelings from someone i love, i like, or even the one i hate,...i may sound as a 'plastic' but i'm just really not that expressive...i'm always having hard time opening up myself to anyone...well, that's just me!

***I always consider what other people would think before doing anything....which makes me an indecisive person at times...

***Upon making friends i'm not usually the one who's first to approach...i'm too shy..hahaha...and i'm just too apprehensive of rejections...i have a very low self-esteem...

***I crave for mangoes ( the green ones ), pastas and pizzas....yum!yum!yum!..and i'm not into sweets...

***I'm a certified NBSB, and at my age i'm ashame of it!!haha!

***I also wanted to be a photographer...i love taking pictures!!

***I'm a nature lover...i love greens..and blues...stunning sceneries awes me...

***I'm too afraid making mistakes...i don't want people to hate me..though i know i can't please them all...it's okay if they don't like me..just don't hate me..or else..........i'll just cry.....

***I find love undefinable...it has many faces and so as it's definitions....the only love I know that's real..is God's LOve..

***Some people might find me as a snob..but it's just that i'm too shy to say the first "hi!"....

***I'm a music lover...i'm fond of songs which i can relate to...and those that reminds me of something........or someone...........

***I'm a sentimental person...i keep stuffs with sentimental value..even a small piece of note from a friend..i keep it..even until now........

***I'm not into sports of any kind....maybe because i was an asthmatic at grade school and i was always exempted in P.E....haha...but once i've been an avid fan of basketball, just because i have a huge crush with a player.........

***I'm a boring person...but i love hanging out with people who has lots of sense of humor....i just love laughing even on the silliest joke...ever!!

***I love traveling....it's exciting going to places where i've never been...and if ever i could have the time and money i'll spend it traveling anywhere i'd want to....

***I'm a quiet person...i'm more of a listener than a speaker...though i have lots to say on my mind, i just find it hard letting it out..........

***I fall inlove too easily...but I'm too afraid to commit...

***I hate saying goodbyes and changes as well...if only I could freeze time...

***I may be too obsessive sometimes but once I've felt rejection, I then quit...I give up on people too easily...

***I'm a nurse but I'm afraid of injections...but I always wanted to be confined in a hospital for I haven't experienced it myself yet...just without those IV insertions please!...silly isn't it?

***I always wonder what other people thinks or feel about me...so I tend to be cautious on my actions at times....

***I have a morbid desire of having a serious illness like leukemia maybe...then I'd be spending my last few days with all the people that once became a part of my life...and enjoy those final days with them and I'll die happy....I don't want a sudden death....I'm weird like that...

***I am always aware when I hurt someone or when i did something wrong...but sometimes I just pretend I don't and blame the other person instead...

***I'm too immature and childish and I can't help it...maybe because I haven't enjoyed my childhood years that much...

***I'm a hypocrite sometimes...and I'm aware of it...I criticize other people's mistakes and then eventually I would realize that I've been doing that same mistake too...and I'm so ashamed of it...

***I'm afraid to be forgotten by the people that I would always remember all my life...

***I am a short-tempered person...and very moody...beware!

***I find it uncomfortable when I'm walking and there are bystanders along the way...I just don't want being stared at...though I'm not so sure if they're really staring at me...I'm paranoid sometimes...

***I'm a very jealous person...and I have lots of insecurities...but I always hide it to mysef and just pretend instead...and I hate myself for that!!!

THIS IS LAVENDER

quote post Sun, Jan. 09, 2011

“I miss you once again. I was doing so well. I thought I was getting along, but it comes in waves. And when I hear your name, when I see the summer stars. It’s back to that very night when you slipped away. The pain lingers on in the back of my mind.”
(via poeticheartache)

(via goingstrange)